“All cultures, East and West, have their own unique ways of punishing those whose ideas and behaviors run contrary to established beliefs,” says neuropsychologist Dr. Mario Martinez. These punishments get transmitted from parents to children and show up in our relationships when we fall in love. “These forms of punishment cause emotional damage that surfaces in the form of three archetypal wounds,” which Dr. Martinez describes as follows:
- Abandonment
- Shame
- Betrayal
“I call these wounds archetypal,” says Dr. Martinez, “because they are so remarkably consistent across cultures—and the similarities in their mindbody manifestations are striking.”
When I first read about these wounds a shiver ran up my spine. I often get these shivers when I’m tuning into some deep levels of understanding about my own life and the lives of those I love and work with.
Abandonment immediately brought up a memory of a time I was eight years old. Three years prior, my father had tried to take his own life and was in a mental hospital. My mother was doing her best to take care of us while trying to understand what had happened to my father. Most immediately she had to earn some money and had gone out to work part time.
She had me stay with a baby-sitter for a few hours a day when she went out to do typing at an office close to our home. Usually the baby sitter was picked up by her father, but on this occasion she wasn’t available and my mother needed to take the babysitter back home. She told me she would be right back, but it got dark and I became terrified, fearing that something had happened to her and she wasn’t coming back.
I became increasingly frightened and panicked and when she returned I was out in front of the house looking up and down the street sobbing uncontrollably. My mother seemed more concerned about what the neighbors might think and hurried me back inside. She didn’t scold me, but she acted like my crying us unnecessary. I learned to suppress my fears, yet the terror of abandonment continued to live in me throughout my life.
Take a moment to reflect on abandonment in your own life. Many of us have experiences with fathers who may have been absent physically or emotionally or mothers or other family members who left us for short or longer periods of time. What have been your experiences?
Shame brought up memories of being different, that something was wrong with me. When other kids talked about their mothers and fathers they wanted to know where mine were. My mother was often out working while other kids had their moms at home. I felt ashamed that my mother had to work. But I felt deep shame about my father.
No one talked about what happened to him. He never returned home from the mental hospital where he had been sent following his suicide attempt. When kids asked where my father was, I first told him he was in a hospital following an automobile accident, which had actually happened, though he was never hospitalized. But when he continued to be absent, I would finally tell people that he had died. The shame I felt clung to me like old sodden clothes.
Take a moment to think about feelings of shame that you have experienced in your life. How did you deal with it? Does it continue to impact your life and your relationships now?
Betrayal brings back a painful memory of going on a cruise with my first wife. We were with a group of people who had been meeting together in a kind of early “encounter group.” We talked about personal life issues and, given that it was the 1970s, there was a lot of talk about sexuality and “open marriage.”
Since we were on a cruise where there was a lot of “encountering,” my wife and I talked about what our needs and boundaries were around getting involved sexually with anyone on the cruise. We both agreed that talking about sexuality was fine, but this wasn’t the time or place to have things go beyond talking or fantasizing.
We were having a great time on the 7-day cruise, but one evening I couldn’t find my wife when we had planned to get together. After asking everyone I could think to ask in our group about where she was, I became concerned. No one had seen her for several hours. As the minutes ticked by and I couldn’t locate her, I became more and more frightened that something bad had happened to her. I had images of her falling overboard and drowning.
Finally, she turned up looking slightly disheveled and guilty. She admitted she had met a handsome crew member and had gone off with him. “One thing led to another,” she pleaded, “and we ended up in bed.” I wanted to kill her. After our discussion I felt totally betrayed. It took us years of healing, but the betrayal never fully healed. After ten years of marriage, we separated and divorced. However, the fears of betrayal still live in me.
What betrayals have you experienced? How have they impacted your life? Have they fully healed or do they still eat away at you?
It’s said that our bodies never forget. I think that’s true. I suspect that many of the physical problems I’ve had through the years including anxiety attacks, atrial fibrillation, and prostate problems and erectile dysfunction are related to these three archetypal wounds.
Reflect on physical and emotional problems you have. Do you see a possible connection to any of the wounds you’ve experienced? What kind of healing have you done? What still needs to be healed?
I look forward to your comments, questions, and sharing.
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Jed,
Reminding us of the connections among the emotional (the spiritual) and the body is soooo important. Not only is the connection little discussed in the west, it is largely discouraged by western medicine. Alopathic medicine is quick to “relieve,” symptoms but slow to look for root causes which can lead to real healing – hence the phrase “symptom management.”
If we feel hurt in our bodies, western medicine has taught us to find a medicine to make the hurt go away. Most often this is done at the expense of finding and healing the cause of the hurt. Our bodies ache or dysfunction to let us know something is wrong, or sometimes – as in the case of a fever – to let us know they are busy healing. Listening to our bodies can tell us so much about our psyche.
Your ability to remember specific childhood events and their emotional manifestations has always amazed me. Not all of us have processed in this way. But, I would be remiss in my “yogi,” role were I not to remind everyone that we can heal our spirit/body ailments through practices like yoga. A yoga practice allows us to move healing energy through our bodies, even if we don’t know the origin of the pain. And, in many cases, costs less than a co-pay at the doctor’s office.
Thanks again for this important reminder!
Namaste’
Rebecca, Well said. Its nice to recognize that there are other healing approaches than Western, allopathic approaches, that rely on symptom relief. There are many ways we can get at root causes and treat at that level. Thanks for reminding us that yoga is one of those practices.
I heard you on npr news,and do you talk about tapping and other techniques in your men alive books
Steve, Thanks. I talk in depth about tapping and other energy healing techniques in my book, Stress Relief for Men: How to Use the Revolutionary Tools of Energy Healing to Live Well. I think you’ll like it.
Jed-
What about when our head and heart are in two different places? I’m one month divorced from my third husband. His disrespect and negativity were more than I could accept, and I wanted out when it became clear he was unwilling to continue therapy. I KNOW it has to be over, but he pulls at my heartstrings. Now, of course, he is begging me back, all while enjoying a veritable buffet of women. It’s nothing short of sick, and it is affecting me physically, and so much more than is rationally understandable. I’m shocked that I am so affected. Yes, it’s an incredible betrayal. And the prenup protected him, so I had to abandon the life I had built for five years. I am proud of my conviction, but worry I could cave. Not my first rodeo; I know I will survive, but I am concerned about cumulative damage. Appreciate you and your posts!
Wow. Thanks for being transparent and vulnerable. This is some really good stuff for me to read. I’ve been working through these three things for awhile. The understanding is clear, the healing takes longer.